Monday, October 22, 2007

Saturn's Bitch-Ass Return

My mood has greatly improved since my last cuntish post. This is mostly because the lovely Meg reminded me that Saturn is in Return for me.

For those curious, it takes 29 point something years for Saturn to rotate around the sun. So right around our 29th birthday, Saturn is returning to its position at our birth. This signals Big Changes and Grownup Feelings, which may or may not induce one to toss oneself under a hurtling bus. Depending on one's maturity level.

Thus my feelings of hysteria and impending doom are completely normal, and I'd like to take this opportunity to point my finger in blame at the second largest planet for any bad behavior I may exhibit until I turn 30.

And during this time of growth and transition, Saturn urges us to do an "internal spring cleaning."

So to dust off the old cerebellum, we visited the gorgeous Pioneer Valley on Saturday. Hiked with our doberson, and lord was it spectacular. For all the love in my heart for NYC, fall in New England stands alone.

This made me want to quit my job, buy 10 acres and start a goat farm:




Well that, and this:



On the real, though, I worship this city. And it helps that I live in the last legit neighborhood on the island of Manhattan. But, be it the trees or the trails or E's pooching belly, holy moses did I feel like moving this weekend.

And I'm not one to think that raising a kid in the city is a bad idea - au contraire. City kids rock. I'm jealous that I didn't get to grow up in this metaphysical racket.

But the idea of being swept up in the NYC parental attitude skeers me. We have friends who have yet to BEGIN to TRY to get pregnant, whose future child's name is already on the application list at 5 preschools.

Cause that's how long the wait lists are.

And we so aren't about that. We're more of the our-kid-rides-his-bike-the-6-blocks-to-public-school type of people. And let's face it, regardless of the strength of one's bike-lock, one's bike is not one's own in this great city.

(If you've lived in New York whilst owning a bike, your bike has been stolen. Unless you have magic powers.)

So all that is to say, it was a good weekend for internal tidying in response to Saturn's counsel. The sun shone and then it rained. The trees were crimson and gold, like my new bike. I thought about the city. I thought about the not-city. I thought about our peanut-sized embryo. E vomited for the first time.

Life was good.

8 comments:

owl said...

great..i've got all that to look forward too (i turn 29 next yr) as if i am not having a crappy enough time of it!!
At least you have an explanation for the crap. Although the title of your post could be a new star wars movie!
the goat is cute-but goats chase kids, well our kid anyway!

CD & SP said...

amen! i know that pull of both the valley and the city-it was the hardest decision (harder than deciding to try to have a kid, that's for sure), coming here for good. it was worth it, as the fall would attest. but there are still some things about city life i constantly feel i am missing out on.

Dis said...

29 SUUUUUUUCKED for me.
A lot.
30 is way better :-)
I see your number one boy in the picture. How's he doing?

the injector said...

your reflections on the tension between yearning for that goat farm and connection to the city are astute. Everyday, I want to be in northern michigan, but simultaneously i am so thankful for this place where i live (of course it is not even close to being a real city, like your dear NYC, but it is loud, crowded with cars and sprawl, laden with industry that has reeked havoc on the water of this great land, strewn with broken glass and needles). Every morning I can get up and ride my bicycle to work along an immense river, that I love so much I got it tattooed on my arm, and that is worth it alone. Plus the people surrounding us are amazing and so close in proximity. The goat farm might be too quiet. But then again, some day perhaps it will be the right thing to strive for.

Thank you for your thoughts...

gold star said...

dis - our number one boy is doing really well. no more episodes since the last horrible one. thank you for asking!!

sfsueny said...

this is why we have country homes to retreat to on the weekends...

Kierce said...

2 things. Saturn return encompasses several years of your life, it does not just begin at 29 and end at 30. It slowly creeps up and slowly moves away. I am just feeling like I am coming out of it. next thing...ageless body timeless mind, really good. Try the book on CD, or just the book. Deepok Chopra...ideas create reality.

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